The Ungood Men
I am a man
who has said I love you
to six different women
without ever knowing how to love.
I am a man who wants to change the world
but never my ambition,
to be on the golden podiums.
I am a man who wants to be toughest.
Yet will always want to feel warm and taken care of.
I am a man who wants to be cool like 1950βs movie stars
Even with devout anxiety and shaking knees.
I am a man who drinks his pride like unsober American heroism.
I am a man drunk with preconceptions of predating confidence.
I am a man dead, of the soul and the lilac design.
I am man for your loving and undue abuse.
I am a man who canβt stop hurting those he loves.
I am a man who grew up too soon.
I was never a man.
I was hurt and astray.
Filled with knowings and scars.
I put them in women,
and feel like a man.